Currently thoughts Vol. 3: Anxiety vs overthinking
PROLOGUE:
As I was scrolling thru my facebook wall, I saw a candy Magazine’s article of Tricia Gosingtian’s thoughts about her anxiety. (My fave blogger that’s why I click it).
I’m currently asking myself while writing this. Do I have an anxiety or I’m just an over thinker? Over thinking that leads me to negativity. Also, one thing about me is I’m an observant person I care too much in the facial expressions, it has meanings to me, meanings that I can’t stop thinking and usually make me feel uncomfortable. My mind turns negatively my mind is full of consciousness, fear, tensions, and panic for no reason.
Whenever I feel that I’ve been talked back by someone or hearing unpleasant words. I stay in a quiet mode all of the sudden. Then, I’m afraid of doing what I need to do. I know I can but there’s always hesitations already. There’s always “baka” baka magkamali ulit ako, baka sabihin/isipin is ganito ganyan. Started to feel unused and doubting myself (Self-worth)
Was it all in my head? Am I just too paranoid? Was it all in my mind only?
“Kaya mo yan!” “Tangalin mo ang pagka concious mo kaya paulit ulit ka nagkakamali.” “Ilabas mo kasi yung kulit/daldal mo sa iba.” Friends will always say this to me. I feel trapped with all my thinking don’t know how to retrieve it.
I hate this feeling. Don’t want to elaborate more of it. I need motivation and be positive AGAIN, like I was before, when I didn’t encountered that situation. Although I left wounded, I self pity in that situation I will value those things that will never do that again. Great thing is I will treasure that lesson in my life.
No more negative please! YOLO Life AGAAAIINN!
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